0 Optimist

13.6.2013 Success is not a luck, it's the consequences of measurable steps. I compare success to climbing a mountain, you will never be there unless you take the first step, and continue all the way to the top. First I decide the destination which is going to the top of the mountain, then I find information how to get there or join someone who has the same destination, then take the action. Do not stop until it's done. It is that simple. If I spend all the time and energy with single mind to one destination, it won't take very long time to get there. Of course there will be so many obstacles because it's the first time. The biggest obstacle is fear and doubt. The biggest problem to be solved is inside rather than outside. I don't know wheter I go to the right direction. I am going alone and full of doubt. I know so many people want to go to the top of the mountain but they fear and never take the first step. They bury the dream inside and hide it by saying, "It's rediculus to go there, I'm to old to do it, I'm happy just staying at home" and many more excuses. If I am fearless, my life is full of adventure. But it's never the case, I'm fearful and my life is somewhat boring. I see it in everyone's eyes. I don't listen to the call of the wild. I choose to be a pet, stay at home, eating and sleeping comfortably every single day. Every time I see my lame bellypot I feel disappointed. It's the result of comfort, eating and sitting all day long. I need to make money and therefore enslave myself, selling my time and labor to others. I don't even dare to start my own business. I can hear my excuses inside by head, it echoes over and over again, never stops. To live like this is the waste of life. When I realize it, it's late. I wish I did differently. I wish I saved my money for ten years and then start my own business. I wish I planted trees ten years ago and now I can sell them. I wasted my money and time because I didn't know what would happen in the future which is now. It's never too late to learn a lesson. Now I put value number to my time. Following Naval Ravikant's advice that one should have ridiculusly high price tag to his time, mine will be $100 an hour. It's about 1,5 million rupiahs. I should behave accordingly. If I spend one hour on facebook, it means I pay 1,5 million to do it with my time. Therefore I should have time only to do my work, excercise, and eating healthy foods. It's about focus and priority. Long ago I believed that focus on getting wealth was evil, greedy, and so on. It has negative value subconsciously. That's why I didn't do it and now I feel that I am poor at my age. Getting fired from my job as a teacher is maybe the best thing that happened to me. Without it, I wouldn't think about starting my own business. Renting my time and labor will never make me rich. I will live unfulfill life. I will be a coward, fear of uncertainty, and timid. I will stay in one place because I'm afraid to go. I'll become invalid. Now living in uncertainty for several years I feel that it's not scary. I get used to it. I know I can do anything freely now than before. I have less money but more time and freedom. If I fail, I just need to start again. Just like writing, just do it. Today maybe I write badly, tomorrow I write better. What I know is that I write every single day, good or bad, doesn't matter. I need a lot of failures to realize that they are not scary, just another failure, just start again. I learn to be humble and patient. I learn to keep going no matter what happened. Now I'm an optimist. With my price tag on my time I will guide my time properly. People are naturally the same. They hide and press their anger when they fail to live their own expectations both on themselves and on others. People avoid conflict with all costs. It doesn't resolve the problems. They are unhappy and bitter inside but they show happiness outside to hide their real failures. I repeat this in many articles I wrote, "Power equals happiness". When people lack of money, they feel powerless, and it causes a lot of problems. Even religious people that I know in real life, they are unhappy when they are in economic trouble. Yet they deny to admit their real problems, they just blame others or things to their unhappiness without ever realize the root source of the problems. Money doesn't solve all problems but it solves money problems. My advice to everyone is this, be rich, therefore if you are unhappy, you know it's not because of money. So many problems in daily life are rooted in the lack of money and people deny this and never resolve the problem completely.