0 Reflection on your 40th

you see what you want to see,

you feel what you imagine,

nothing is more important than

   what you are thinking about,

memory fades away,

what is important today,

tomorrow has lost its essence,

like a news that keeps coming,

one after another,

feels important at the moment,

then obsolete, like people, stuffs, events...

it's the tyranny of small actions,

always small things that destroy us,

getting older bit by bit, broken bit by bit,

we lose not by a big war, but by small neglects,

small fights, small misunderstandings,

here and there, now and then,

the happiness along human's life

is merely busying schedule,

what becomes routine,

becomes boring if not burden...

"you are the prison", said Gurdjief,

even what you will and want

is not truly yours,

it's the reflection of others, parents, teachers

    friends, society, biology, all living and non living.

you never be and have yourself, 

not even your desire, fear and hope,

therefore no hard feelings, la tahzan

you belong to god, to universe,

nothing can happen otherwise,

even this note,

has started billions years ago,

all the way to come here,

to come to you this very moment,

"happy birthday"