0 Whatever you write will become reality

_9.7.2021_ I found this title on YouTube video. I wrote a lot of diaries and I lost them all so I do not know what I wrote on my diary when I was in high school or in university. Normally I kept things long enough only to lose them later. Maybe I didn’t need to keep them from the beginning. I turn into someone totally different from the past and I'm not interested in stuffs from the past or even ideas. It's better to keep nothing from the past, just let bygone be bygone. I forgot my friends from kindergarten, primary school, even high school. Only few of them still remember me when we meet by accident. I know when I reread this note in the far future I must be different person with different ideas. Maybe I will be embarrassed by this note. At least for now, this is the best I can do. If I keep improving, of course in term of ten years, things will be totally different. I want to be a writer and I have started the journey now by writing every day. I want to be a painter as well because it is my childhood dream. I can pursue the dream as a hobby and it's ok, better than doing nothing at all. Lately I listen a lot to audiobooks, I want to learn how to be rich. I believe in ten year time I will be rich. I don't need to work for others and I have a lot of freedom and no problem with money at all. As I see around me, life is about working to survive. Most people do not have plan to be rich in ten or fifteen year time. They just work and spend the money they earn to consumption. They will never be rich their whole lifetime because they do not aim at it and make no action toward it. I learn this from Jordan Peterson that one can only hit what he aims at. If I aim at mastering Japanese language, then I start to study it, every day. In five to ten years I will be able to master it. But if I don't aim at it, there is no way I can speak Japanese fluently one day because I do not do anything about it. It matters a lot that I make a conscious decision and moving toward the aim. The most concrete example is this writing. I do this every day because I aim at writing a book in five years. It's an exercise and a habit building. I didn't do it before, for example in university, when I actually have a lot of time and energy. If I can repeat that time, indeed I will write every day like this. I didn't have plan to be successful at something at that time. I just wanted to get a job and worked like everyone else. To earn little money and live as others was the only thing I could see at that time. Before I went to university, my view of the world was even narrower. I was afraid of so many things. I didn't know what to do other than to be a slave, working for others as cheap worker. I applied for the lowest job possible and still hard to find one. The competition in the lowest ground was very hard. Now life is easy. I work a little and I got a lot more than those who work hard in a factory. Indeed knowledge is the true power. The more knowledge I have, the more power I have. Now I should aim at more knowledge, especially the knowledge that leads to be rich. For as long as I remember, I always love philosophy and being rich was never an aim. But now I'm getting married in a month. I realized that the lack of money equals much trouble and insecurity. I feel powerless and ashamed at the same time. I wasted too much time and resources for nothing these few years. I had no aim, I didn't even save any money for marriage. I was ignorant and I regret it the most. But this unfortunate event maybe the one that woke me up to work as hard as I can from now on. Working to get financial freedom and freedom as general. People are limited by their knowledge and power. Money is one legit source of power and access. What if it doesn't become reality? Reality is persistent imagination. If I write every day for years, of course I am a writer. It's the reality. At least some of the writing will become reality. Aiming at something and keep doing what it takes will eventually hit the target. If I want to enter a ball into a basket and I do it every day for years, my accuracy will definitely improve. I can't see different scenario. It must be it. This happens to my Mandarin as well. I studied Mandarin every day not intensively, just casually, sometimes watching dramas and teaching Mandarin to kids several times a week. Now I can see that my Mandarin has improved a lot compare to the last year. As long as I move toward the destination, the distance is closer and closer. Writing is the best habit I have lately. It makes me conscious about my decision for my future. Without this reminder every single day, I just lost in social media and doing nothing but wasting time. Playing stupid game winning stupid prize. Now I do not update status anymore, sometimes I check YouTube just to see my others do. Some of my friends are so addicted and update their status every several hours or even minutes, who knows. I feel sorry for them. I can see my old self on them. I shared quotes, wisdom, movie clips, whatever I think useful and amazing. It turned out that nobody cares. They are too busy with their own status as well. With this writing habit I can focus better as well. I know my priority and I can say no to immediate gratification. I can wait until ten fifteen years to get what I want. But I don't just wait, I work hard every day to get there. Be impatient with the work but be patient with the result. Finally it's just about mindset and effort to get what I want. I will get there for sure.