0 Only if you really want it

_18.6.2021_ I've been to the top of the mountains many times, Ungaran Mountain, Merbabu and Semeru. I realize now that anyone can be there too if they really want it, only if they really want it. It's easy for me to say so, it's not easy for anyone who wants to try it for the first time. It's hard and long journey, walking for hours and hours, but you will make it if you really want it. Once you are there, it's easier to go again for the second time. The first is always the hardest. The distance is the same, everything is the same, what difference is the mindset, the psychology. The second time will be much easier because you have the map in your mind, you know what it takes and you know how to handle it. The greatest obstacle is inside not outside. It's the fear and doubt. You are not confident because you don't know what will happen and how to face it. The first time I decided to lift a barbell 5000 reps, It's very hard, the second time is easier, the tenth time, getting even easier and so on. Everything is hard at the beginning. Only few people indeed start doing what they want, pursuing their dream. Is your current job your dream job? The answer is "no", I have no choice. Wrong! You have unlimited choices and you are always choosing. Your current job is definitely your choice, to stay there is your choice as well. I know that you are forced by your fear. You don't do something because you are afraid and doubt. If you are brave enough, you just do it. Long ago, when the world is full of danger, the best strategy to survive is by being cautious and pessimistic all the time, now the opposite, be optimist. The chance is that you won't die from hungry or eaten by predators, therefore go pursue your dream. You can be a painter, a writer, cartoonist, and singer, gamer, anything that makes you forget the time. You won't die from hunger. Ignore your fear and doubt. Put all your eggs in one basket and have no second plan. Be all out, it's not dangerous. In five years, you will see the result. For five years or ten years, just live like an army in a world war, discipline, focus, do whatever it takes to be successful, ignore anything else. You will make it, sooner or later, no matter what. It will happen only if you really want it. It's not luck, it's natural. Try to read a difficult book, finish it no matter what, it's hard, but once you can finish one, you'll have what it takes to finish two, once you can finish two, you can finish three. You can finish ten thousand difficult books. Math is always right, but no one believe it. The logic is this if you can lift 1kg, you can lift 2kg, you can lift 3kg, and you can lift 10000kg. It should be true. People just don't believe it and don't try it themselves. If you can run 1m, you can run 2m, if you can run 2m you can run 3m, then you can run 10000m. So, if you can run 1m/s then you can run 10000m/s? Math is not reality, it's a perfect world. Number 1 is perfect, never changes, and never dies. But math is applicable. With technology, a robot can outperform a man in almost everything because it can be upgraded to unlimited progress. Nature has its limit. But most people never meet their potential. My running speed and endurance today are maybe less than 10% of my real capacity. My reading speed and endurance are also far less then my true capacity. If I try to improve one important aspect and focus, in less than 5 years I'll be able to achieve the great improvement that I never imagined before. My world is limited by my own belief. Yes my body has limit, yet I haven't seen the limit what it’s capable to do. Imagine I write for eight hours every day, seven days a week. I will meet my writing potential. If I can't apply math progressive theory to physical body because it's limited capacity, I definitely can apply this to money. If I can earn 1m per month, I can earn 1m, therefore I can earn 10000m per month. Money is just number. It's pure math. I must not limit my belief that I can only earn 10m per month for example. Income can grow to the unlimited, I just need to figure out how. I believe that people want to have beautiful body, but they don't REALLY want it. They don't want to do what it takes, they don't even bother to try or to find out how. They are ignorance on this particular problem. It's just about exercise more and often eat less. How hard to do it? To say no to pleasure is the hardest thing in the world. They do not have warrior mindset, they take victim mindset. They blame everything else for their failures. And they keep failing. Failure is not enemy, it's a great teacher, but who can learn from failure? Instead of learning, they blame it. They kill the messenger. I realize that I do the same, kill the messenger, and blame him for delivering bad news. I need to wake up now. The first thing I need to do is to take responsibility of my life. If I really want to do something, I have the reason to do it and really do it no matter what. If I want to be a writer, I write every day, start with small and keep going, one page, then two, then three. I know I have what it takes to do it, the right attitude, the warrior mindset. I won't give up or make excuses not to do so. I won't blame anyone or anything. This is my own responsibility, if I fail I will learn and get better the next time. The obstacles is inside, the fight is inside. No matter what happen, I'll sit to the last sentence. Before that, I won't move. For now it's one page only to the end of this month. It's about one thousand words. In July, I will start with two thousand words. I really want to be a writer even if no one will read the books later, I don't care, even if I got no money at all, I just want to write. It's happening now.