0 Boredom and Focus

_27.7.2021_ What stop me from finishing a book in a day is boredom. It starts with the decrease of energy, then I lose my focus and I finally stop reading. Reading is the habit that I want to maintain to the end of my life. I want to spend my time to read books at least two hours a day. Anything that I do not monitor, I will fail to do it. It must follow simple rule such as wake up and then write a page for writing. For reading I must also create a pattern that is attached to the pattern I already have. These several days I do not write religiously like before because I don't follow my pattern. I procrastinate until I am too tired to do it. Morning is the best time for me to do anything difficult and energy consuming. I am morning person and better to wake up early like at three and start doing activity immediately. I still waste a lot of time to do nothing. If I start late in the morning, I will miss a lot of activities whis are important for my future. Modern people focus on working. They think they waste their time when they do not work. This happens to me as well. But actually working for others is also wasting time, working in something less than my highest capacity is also wasting time. I must focus my time and energy to do the essential and important work only. Reading and exercising are always important. First I need to decide what is important and what is not important and stick to that. Watching movie on You Tube is not important. Watching TV is not important at all. I need to know what can I do today that will make me successful in ten years. Creating YouTube videos and maybe drawing can also make me successful. Planting trees will make me successful in ten years. Reading books is the best infestation. I know that all success start with the right mindset. I need to read more. I need to train my focus as well by meditation every day. If my mind is not peaceful, to focus is almost impossible. Especially my ears are sensitive to sound. Anytime I hear a voice from television, I can't focus at all. I need to cover my ear or listen to white noise. I'm sure that everything on Television is ignorance and I can't hear it without feeling undisturbed. I imagine if I do not have boredom I can finish everything that I start quite easily. If I can work hard for a long time and focus, I believe that to be successful is just a matter of time. Time is the key factors in everything. Most people try to avoid boredom by doing something else. Today it's simply checking social media and watching videos on You Tube or on similar platform. I create a You Tube channel myself hoping that people will watch and I earn money from that. Most people use others' ignorance to earn money. If all people are mindful, they won't spend time on social media and they do not need to buy stuffs mindlessly and business won't go well. Actually it benefits the whole society and increase the prosperity of all people. I feel bored sometime because I do not see the results of my hard work. Then I think, "what if this is another failure?" or some other negative thoughts that destroy my enthusiasm at the time. Then I simply entertain myself doing foolish thing on internet. I can imagine one best character that I represent the love of pursuing dream. The character is from a movie titled "Perfume, the story of a murderer". He thinks about nothing else but his ambition to create the best perfume. Nothing and no one can stop him from achieving his dream and he does. If you are interested in doing something, happiness doesn't matter at all. People want to be happy because they are boring. When they are interested on something, they are ready to suffer. Happiness is for boring people. When one falls in love for the first time, he is so excited and possessed by love. Happiness doesn't matter, he can do anything and it's beyond happiness and suffering. Nothing is more important than his love. When a scientist is on a venture of research who interest him, he doesn't really care about the danger. He is more than willing to sacrifice his life to do it. When an astronaut goes to Mars for the first time, He doesn't know what will happen, but he is possessed with enthusiasm of new exploration. A true artist is ready to live in poverty for his art journey. A sage can go to a jungle and doing meditation without thinking about the dangers that maybe happen anytime. It's great to have the fire inside you. When you don't care about happiness anymore and you live your life fully. In reality, most people are just too bored and fear to pursue whatever they want to pursue. They kill their dream in order to live safely. They get bored and pray to have easy life. Every day they pray for happiness. They pray for eternal happy easy life, heaven. They do not know what it really is. They just want something different from their life out of boredom.