0 The End of Life Is Not Pleasure

Which one is better you get a job or fired from your job? From one perspective, getting a job means you will have security, you can eat three or four times a day, hang out with friends, and you can buy house and car. Losing a job can be difficult, now you can only rely on yourself. Maybe you will lose relationship, your friends will slowly disappear from your life. You live simple life, eating simple food once or twice a day. You will realize that being poor is not as scary as you had imagined. Most will say that the first case is better. You will think less about life and death because you don't have to think, you have schedule you can't avoid. Your life will pass like a dream until you get old and regret. You will finally lose your job, friends, and security. Hopefully by that time you can rely on your children. Yet still you feel useless and weak. Shall we get old doing the same thing over and over again for others who pay us to get security for a while? I have seen so many old people are unhappy in their life. They do not know what to do with the rest of their life. They used to have a master who told them what to do. Being free then becomes scary and stressful. As the ones who have no master since young, they get used to it. They somewhat find their way in life through a lot of problems, they manage to survive until the old age. They rely on no one, they have their own way to deal with failures, lonely, and uncertainties. They can enjoy the life as it is. When they think about death, it doesn't scare them a bit. Their life is always simple and They think clearly because thay have a lot of time thinking, they have no schedule, no meetings to attend, no invitations to parties and hangout. Most people life in fear created by their own mind. Very few people will die of hunger but people are afraid to be hungry and therefore they eat too much. They work hard the whole life to shut this kind of insecurity inside them. There's no security in life, death cannot be avoided. It's certain and we live with that certainty. We put away the thoughts about death, we pretend if we don't think about it, nothing bad will happen. We are like a candle. Now it's lit and gives light, the light will go off sooner or later for certain. During our live we'll always heard the death of friends and family members. It reminds us now and then. We are always in constant fear and refuse to face it. All kinds of pleasures are meaningless compare to death, yet maybe we need pleasures to distract our mind from this fear. The closer to the end, the fear grows bigger and bigger in the background, in subconscious mind. So, living pleasurable life is not that lucky. It's just momentary run away from fear. Like you eat delicious foods but end up in hospital because food poisoning, or because you eat too much. The bad end will ruin the whole memory. Imagine you get drunk and having sex wildly with a friend. The next day when you sober, you are in court for raping a woman you thoght you just had fun with. All pleasures have the price to pay sooner or later most of which not worth the consequences. The end of life will never be pleasure. Who knows if you live miserable life the whole life, the end is much favorable, a relief of suffering. You feel contented and say, finally it ends.