February 6, 2014 at 5:43am
I have a plan. My plan is not to have a plan. Sound life will be more colourful and surprising if we just go with the wind. Then you fall in love, get married, and live in the same place your whole life. Everyday you wake up, go to work, come back home, have a sex and sleep. You do it for exactly the same with small variation for years and years without questioning your life. You think you are happy and that is life.
I have different alternative, and it frightens me sometimes. To just life and forget about security of life, to life simple, eat simple, walk slowly, work joyously, and sleep more. Like Hippies kind of life. But then it will be routine and become like religion, full of rites. Routine help us to be good at something and give us some comfortable feeling. Is that it the purpose of this life to get comfortable feeling? We are taught to be strong, to resist the small pleasure at this time to get the bigger pleasure later. And so many are just a bunch of weaklings that fall on temptation easily, like a children in the front of candies. This very idea to sacrifice today for better tomorrow is questionable. Do we really have tomorrow to enjoy? tomorrow is always tomorrow. We can't catch up tomorrow. But we do have better life now because we have a plan, we are able to read the short future that if we spend all the money now, maybe we'll never have a fancy car, house, better education for children and all.
I suppose that the pleasure of life is not the pleasure itself, but the anticipation of pleasure. The very idea to have better life tomorrow can be more pleasing than to have the real pleasure now. We can sacrifice the real pleasure for the ideal pleasure or imaginative pleasure. The real pleasure is very limited by our senses, but our mind and imagination is unlimited. So the real happiness, the real life, is our state of mind. What happens outside our mind is just phenomena, what happens inside is the real unique individual world.
